There are lots of "what is a furry?" type pages out on the web. This isn't one of them. This is my own, private, view on it, and how I feel and react to it.
Am I a furry as the term is?
The answer yes. And no.
I used to belive so much in much. But over time that's changed. Mainly as I have become more myself, I've left a lot behind that I used to think I was, or I wanted to be.
I used to describe myself as an albino raccoon. In meny ways it was a part of me. Now I know it's simply a charactor that fits in with myself.
Another mask I used to wear more then my own face.
Am I still a furry?
Still the answer is yes.
At one point I was having a tail made to match my looks (see below) and I should really ring to see if it's done. ;)
I got a phone call to say the fur was in, and never heard anything else since then.
I also have a collar I used to wear a lot. Now I hardly wear it at all, but given the right setting, I would with out question. It's not a leather collar like most furs seem to go for, but a fabric one in red.
I think that for me, it's much prettier then a leather collar would be, and I prefer it for that fact.
The biggest problem with the term though is the other connatations it brings. The, well, insanity of some people who claim to be furry. The media and it's total focus on sex.
In a way I find this ironic in my own case, as these days I'm probably one of the least sexually motivated furs around in the UK. Everything to do with sex and me is private, I don't see a reason to scream about it and plaster it all over the net and my site like some.
I don't drawn "yiffy" art, I don't look at it anymore either. It just has no attraction for me, and doesn't have any effect anyway.
I used to look at yerf alot, and occasionally I will these days. The art on there being 100% clean is more my thing. I'll also look at the VCL every now and then, but I'll skip though most of the new art, it takes a lot these days to get me interested in clicking on an image because so much of it on there is basicly erotic, but so unappealing to me.
Some furs save art to their HD becuase of it's effect on them. So do I. I'll save the images that most strike me as deeply moving, or well drawn. There's this one artist who paints onto feathers, I try to collect all of them, because I find them beautiful, and I'm so impressed with the quality and the style of the art.
I used to find furmeets fun. But it depended on the meet. If I go to another one, the same will apply, it will depend on the meet. A lot of the meets focus on things I simply have no interest in. And in the end, you start asking yourself if there's any point in going.
The main reasons I stopped going were simple.
Fated was uncomfortable, and also all the people who we really wanted to talk with, to spend time with, we could go to sheffield and see in much more pleasent surroundings.
I've been described a few times by others as one of the saner, more sensible furs. And I never intend to be anything other then that.
So, who is Chloe online then?
Basicly the charactor of Chloe (or ChloeRed) is myself with animal type charactoristics.
The main physical attributes are the same as myself in real life. So Chloe is a 6'3 female.
The main differenance is the online Chloe is partly a raccoon. An albino raccoon, meaning she has no colour pigments in her body.
A short raccoon muzzle, with pink eyes and nose make up her main looks, which supports a pair of gold rimmed, round lensed glasses. Her ears are also pink on the insides. A fine layer of medium length white fur covers her. But she has no "tipical" raccoon markings.
A long white tail follows her around, also devoid of raccoon markings. And she's often wearing just simple clothes to show off her fur, she loves to wear things that contrast with it, and so blacks tend to be her most worn colours.
I used to write lots of descriptions, often the only changes would be the clothes. I love clothes, both in real life, and online, where I can wear what I want not what works on my body.
They dropped off as my imagination went into hiding under the work and stress load. Some new ones may appear here over time as I recover, but I think I won't be really able to do that till we get a holiday, a true break from work.
I also used to write stories, but they stopped for two reasons. First, the reason stated above. The second is more complicated. I used to write stories on subject matters that I now consider matters that I feel uncomfortable writing about.
If I find a new source of inspiration, I'll probably start writing again. I feel more like writing everyday in meny ways. It's just a case of working out what I want to write about. My knowledge of social type subjects is very poor indeed.